Celebration

Last weekend made me realize what I really don’t like about Florida. We went to Celebration, a Disney engineered  town outside of Orlando and near the theme parks designed to be the perfect family community. My friends say it looks a bit like something out of the Stepford Wives with the perfectly painted houses very close to each other in residential areas and pretty, well maintained streets and condo buildings. That’s the thing about Florida. Everything seems to be a driving distance away, but you need to drive. You can go through one of those small towns and never see anything but a gas station and a one story shopping strip every few intersections. Many of my friends who complain about finding a place to settle here when I mention Orlando also point out that it’s very spread out. Everyone from that area seems to be living in one of those places that have a separate name and are 20 minutes away from work. By car of course, Americans love their cars. On top of everything a lot of things you see from the road, the oversized banners and decorations sticking out of buildings feel very kitschy. Advertising for souvenirs and theme parks everywhere. It looked odd in 2004, still does eight years later. It’s random and over the top like Las Vegas. It has a nice downtown area full of life, pubs, restaurants and entertainment, but when we were out at night the music was blasting into the streets. A little too loud a little to crazy. Miami, I haven’t seen much of, but what I did see was very industrial and dirty. I was beginning to think that there’s no place in Florida that would fit my needs.  The humidity makes it a hard sell anyway. The heat you can get used to, but every day feels like sauna. Some years you feel you got used to it, others – like this Summer, it bothers you again. I need something a little more condensed or a place with good mass transit you can get around. It narrows it down to either a bigger city or a small town, because Gainesville feels like everybody here is just waiting to graduate and get out. Then, we discovered Celebration. And I fell in love with it. It feels like in many ways it doesn’t belong in Florida. It was as if we drove for hours to discover this movie like town out of nowhere. It did seem like a film set with how clean it was, how bright the colors were and how well designed and detailed it was. We drove pass well kept houses with American flags to squares with shops, parks, something that felt like a marina on a lake. My friend called it a New England type of town. Oddly some restaurants invited us to try Portland style cooking. It seemed like a place frozen in time, the ideal American town with a 50’s-60’s style diner and a movie theater that was not a multiplex that seemed to be directly from that era. We drove pass the elementary school and the high school, that I joked was so big every child got their own class room. Why would anybody go anywhere else? There’s even a university. I went there once before and I wanted to investigate. It was my birthday, so my friend took me there for the weekend. I think we both had fun. It was great to get away from the college kids if only for few days. I believe Gainesville topped the charts again of the best places to retire in. I wonder why and what is there to do exactly if  university dominates the town and bars are our main industry. One of Gainesville’s pluses is of course proximity to Jacksonville and Orlando, but why would you want to live somewhere only to drive somewhere else. Celebration is a new town. Built in the mid 90’s. Perhaps I’ll move there one day. I know I’ll be back. People were friendly (and adult), but most importantly, although though it’s a new place built around an idea purposefully to recreate that feeling of nostalgia, to me it had character and atmosphere.

Make it fun!

My mom did a lot to motivate me to do my exercises everyday and make it fun. I might’ve been five or six at the time I first remember, but she made all my toys talk to me in their own distinct  voices and comment on everything that went on in the room. I also knew that there was a witch watching me from the balcony if I was bad or didn’t do what I was supposed to. As a child I was really scared of witches and nurses. I’ve had quite a few injections when was was little and going to get them was a traumatic experience every time. Once my mother misspoke and said that a nurse is watching me from the other building, a fact that that I immediately picked up on. Which is worse? -my mom asked- I don’t know anymore- I replied. Having a lively, engaging environment and a room full of of friends, although all voiced by mother made the dull exercises that I had to do each day, rain or shine for hours a little less boring. Our apartment was full of rehabilitation equipment that might’ve seen unusual to my school friends but felt like ordinary items to me. I’ve had wall bars in my room that doubled as shelves for my plush toys and a gym mattress that was also good for playing or doing homework. All these things seemed natural and obvious as  part of our furniture and so did doing the exercises everyday. When I grew older my mom again tried to make it a little more entertaining when I would walk around the house  with sticks in my leg braces. The goal was 10 rounds, but I always had something to look forward to. Every so often we’d agree on a break and a piece of chocolate or she would challenge me for a reward. My brother’s cassettes that I remember till this day- Michael Jackson, Sandra, Pet Shop Boys among others made things a little more pleasant. When I was out with my braces the goal was to have me walk al the way to the video store and I could rent some cartoons if I wanted to. It’s not that my mom was bribing me and it’s not that I didn’t want to exercise or didn’t know that I should, but she felt that keeping me excited and motivated was important. It was a win win situation. She wanted me in leg braces either standing or down on my stomach for  many hours after all the other things, I wanted to read my favorite novel or watch a classic sitcom. And it’s something I’ve seen in Budapest as well. While most days looked exactly the same on some occasions the conductors prepared something extraordinary. My understanding is, once in a while they were getting evaluated and while exercise scripts remained the same they would get creative and switch things up. On those days they got in character or prepared little prizes for us to collect. I remember getting a pendant made of clay and a Pepsi sticker. They designed the backstory and context just to make it a little more fun and memorable. I remember very little, but it was interesting and different. Routines are repetitive, but they don’t have to be boring.  Like everything in life, you have to keep it interesting.

Guns, fear and human nature

My friend saw a man gunned down a week ago in a local parking garage in Downtown Gainesville. She was coming up to get her car after a night at a pub  when she heard shots. Instinctively, she fell to the ground and then run back to the closest bar for safety and banged on the door until they opened. It was only a day after the movie theater massacre in Colorado made national headlines. Had she shown up a few seconds later she may not have lived to tell us about it. The Aurora events launched another great debate about the ease of accessibility of firearms in America and I hear that in a fashion similar to the aftermath of the World Trade Center attacks movie studios are now reshooting and cutting features involving violence and guns. I don’t have strong views on the Second Amendment either way. I was not born here, so I don’t consider carrying  a gun my birthright. As an attorney I would never get one. I wouldn’t feel safe operating a weapon of any kind as I would probably just injure myself as a result. I don’t mind others having them if it makes them feel safer and sometimes just having that comfort makes all the difference. I also understand how some people are uncomfortable just wondering what strangers may have on them. I do feel safer when people trained and able to use guns have them, provided that they actually do know what they’re doing as opposed to just carrying them around as an accessory, and know how to act in a crisis situation. As an attorney I  know  most positions on the issue and I could make any argument. The Aurora event is of course a great tragedy and I don’t want to play it down. But I don’t think it’s a good material for a Second Am debate given the months and months of preparation, the design, the chemicals and materials used. This cannot simply be lumped in together with gang shootings, the crimes of passion or somebody getting shot by mistake. It’s not a gun issue, it’s an issue of the human psyche bent on bringing pain and destruction. Quite honestly, I don’t think that our laws which our designed to regulate relations within societies will ever be adequate to deal with sociopaths, by definition having no regard or empathy for that society.

I wanted to focus on the fear aspect of this story. We’ll just end up more afraid to be out in the public, more scared of other people, always looking over our shoulders. We cannot predict and prevent all the ways we may ended up getting injured.  If it’s not guns, it’s clubs or knives, or knives or blades or chemicals and fists.There’s no end to human creativity. Someone will always find a new way to harm another human being if they are determined to do so. We can restrict and regulate everyone or everything. we can arm ourselves up to our teeth and never crack a smile. Or we can come to a conclusion that perhaps we are not out there to harm each other and events like that although tragic are limited and rare. With every story on the national news cycle that has  us fearing our neighbor I think a bit of fun is sucked out of our life and  while we can  never be a 100% safe. So why worry about things we can’t possibly predict? My brother told me once that he’d rather pay more money if there ever was an airline that allowed him to sign a waiver and skip all the security checks. You know, a fly-at-your-risk scenario that would let him just enjoy his life and travels without the governments having him wait in line and take off his shoes at his own risk. I can see that- it seems like we live in a world where we are more and more afraid every day. And that’s just no way to live a life. At the same time we put so much trust and faith in other people in ways we don’t even consider. We assume things about someone we’ve never met. Think about it. Every time we cross a street, we assume that the cars will stop for us. It’s one thing to think that they will not harm us intentionally, but we also assume that they can see us, that their senses, faculties and reflexes are not impaired. We assume that they are not drunk. We assume they are not on their cellphone, applying make up, looking for things dropped on the floor or too angry to react on time. What are we basing those predictions on given that we have no way of knowing who the driver is? Most of the time we are fine, but accidents happen. We have strangers preparing and serving our food. It’s one thing to trust they will not poison us, but what can we say about their health as they handle our food.  What about a room full of random strangers, do we worry about the viruses and bacteria from every person we shook hands with  every time we are out in public? We don’t think about that, because considering all the things that could go wrong can drive us crazy. And take out even more joy in our lives. Things in our own community in reality affect us more than stories from half way across the country. And every time something happens we are looking at having more laws, more regulations, more restrictions. For our own good. To protect us from each other and sometimes- ourselves. Life is full of close calls and near misses and that makes me appreciate life much more. I was hit by a city bus, I was held at gun point at a Subway restaurant, I rolled down a steep hill in Puerto Rico hitting my head. It didn’t really make much difference if it was accidental or intentional, a gun or a car. Things happen and life comes at you fast.

If anything- the fact that the Aurora event is seen as a horrific tragedy and not something you see every  day is pretty telling that things are not as bad as we think. And it shouldn’t be stopping us from living our lives, because each of us only has one. That weekend I went to see Batman and I have to say I was pretty uncomfortable during the shooting scenes. But we got to shake it off. If we just give in to fear what kind of lives will we have and what kind of a world will we leave to our children?

Law: The imperfect tool

The law is an imperfect instrument. It will not bring back a loved one, it will not restore a limb, it will not undo the harm. While having your day in court might give you a certain satisfaction and a feeling of vindication it does not have the power to make people like you. Chances are they will like you less. While all of this is obvious, with my limited but expanding experience practicing law, I’ve been noticing how some people who stop and ask me for advice often  have some other agenda that it was not designed to address. They have goals beyond what law can give them. I often have to stop them and ask: will getting money (or an injunction) fix this, will it make you whole, will you feel better after all of this is done, because at the end of the day, the attorney will be gone and it’s the client who still will be living in that particular community dealing with the aftermath, and yes going against  family will make Holiday dinners awkward. Having money helps of course, but  the big question for me is, what’s the best possible outcome for that person and can the law help them accomplish it.  People always think that just because something happened to them, however minor, they have a million dollar case on their hands. They don’t realize that law  in general is designed to compensate, if you will, not pay out a premium, just because they caught somebody doing something wrong. It’s not a lottery or a bingo game. Sometimes if they pursue it, they will not get much, simply because they haven’t suffered much or at all. Other times the injury is more severe, but there was no one legally responsible for it. No one had the duty to prevent it. In certain types of cases for example the law requires the defendant to have a particular “bad”  mental state, like “actual malice”. Those times are particularly hard on me, because I see a client who suffered or may be suffering still, the damage is visible and real, yet they will not recover against that defendant, because the law places the bar much higher. Not all cases are worth going after based of what a person may get  in the end. A good attorney will try to shelter client from the negative aspects of the trail but I think it’s naïve to say that they will not be affected at all, that it’s not tiring or doesn’t require any participation. But then there are clients who have a good case,  yet they are afraid to come forward. And I see it in a lot of the ADA cases. They have the feeling of being alone against the world that I realize and relate to. I’ve been there.And there is only so much I can do to reassure them. Not only because we are ethically limited as to how far we can go when reaching out to a client and what we can do. At the end of the day they will be the ones affected and stuck with consequences. It’s their life. And law, as powerful of a tool it is, will not make all your problems go away.

Are wheelchairs at war with bicycles?

"Are wheelchairs and bikes at war with each other?"
The hipster culture seems to to have taken over the city.  Don't get me wrong, i can appreciate a particular style and sense of belonging. I'm happy that this generation finds new ways to have fun and new place where they can spend time. I'm not that much older than some of them and I remember the nights when I use to live it up after a week of law school.  But the city is for all of us to enjoy. We all need to get around. Everywhere I turn on some evenings these days, I see a bike. And I do mean everywhere. The Top crowd seems to tie their two-wheeled vehicles to absolutely anything in sight. Tuesday night I've noticed many of them locked to trees, stop signs, parking signs , lamp posts and anything that resembled a railing for up to two blocks away. And this often becomes a problem when they leave wheels sticking out into the sidewalk. You see, I'm in a wheelchair. When my path is blocked i simply can't get by. Now I've been in situations when I scratched myself all my chair when I tried to squeeze myself into the little area an inconsiderate biker left. I guess he was in a hurry or had somewhere to be, why would he ever concern himself with the needs of   others? Now, where it really becomes a problem is the Hippodrome Theatre. There's a wheelchair ramp that leads up to the building with a visible Do not block sign painted on the bottom. Still, I've seen people tying their bike to a railing it has and hopping over to Boca Fiesta. A lot of times, when I go to see a movie and I do so most every week, I see many them left there, tied to both sides, inside and out. It becomes really dangerous. The handles and pedals stick oculut, it's too tight to get through and the ramp is steep. You could see that none of their owners were even at the movies, not that it would make it better. I've been clinched between two bikes before and had to scream for strangers help to get me out. I have a lot of consideration for subcultures in Gainesville as they make our scene vibrant. It's a shame that I'm not offered the same courtesy. But then, it feels not too uncommon in Gainesville. Bars set up their portable waiting lines way too far into the sidewalk and are forced to move it as a I try to get by, while the police routinely parks cars in a way that blocks the ramps on the corner. I had to call a dispatcher a few times because I couldn't get off the sidewalk, because it seems nobody seems to think about how difficult it may be for someone like me.

Joshua

Did you ever have anyone, a close friend, somebody you just met, a stranger on the street, touch your life so profoundly that they put you on a different path? I would not be an attorney today if it wasn’t for one faithful night eight years ago when I missed my last bus home.  Looking back at my life,  given how some things just seemed to come together for no apparent reason at the right time,  I really have to wonder and perhaps do so against reason if it was just meant to be. Maybe  life is there to help you out when you’re running out of options and puts the people on your path if you just learn to recognize and reach out to them. That’s how I feel about my friend Josh.  He was an undergraduate student at UF on his way home, walking with friends when he saw me sitting at a bus stop thinking I was in trouble. I was a graduate  law student from Poland, six years his senior, just a few weeks into my program. He became concerned and decided to wait with me for a bus that never came. Then he offered to find me a ride home. It was striking to me how open and caring he was at that time. I soon learnt that this is how he was, always surrounded by friends, passionate and involved, trying and searching to be a better person, to be spiritual and self aware. When I moved to America I decided to be as friendly as accepting as I possibly could, sending as much positivity to the world, hoping it came back to me and in that I felt I found a kindred spirit. Josh it seemed had but one goal- to change the world one person at a time and looked for a good vessel to do it. Thanks to me he was able to observe what it’s like to have a disability more closely. To deal with forms of prejudice and discrimination he never knew. That in turn made him even more sensitive to people’s needs and was   one of the factors that contributed to his choice of a career when he decided to be an attorney. Over the years we had countless conversations about life, purpose, inclusion, future and destiny. But it wasn’t until a few years later when he realized that I have Cerebral Palsy and that he could help- and make me helpful and productive as well.  Josh volunteered at a local Conductive Education facility- an Academy for kids with neuromuscular disabilities. He was playing with  and assisting children for months until he put the two and two together. Little did he know that I was very familiar with this method having grown up with it. This is how I met James Klausner. And this is how I’ve learnt his son’s tragic story.  Josh was just one of those young students wanting to help and do something meaningful. I remember how we were sitting in a restaurant in Tampa and I was telling him about my problems with taking the LSAT test. When I was explaining the difficulties of standardized testing  and how stress and time limitations affect me he suggested we have a rally at the law school courtyard after I jokingly referenced a scene from ‘Beverly Hills, 90210’ where an entire school ends up chanting ‘Donna Martin graduates’ in support of a student. That week we printed flyers and met with fraternities. It was a crazy idea and I remember my mom saying:Now you’ll never get in. It wasn’t a big turn out (It didn’t help we planned for the morning after Halloween), and I don’t think I made a lot of friends at the law school back then, but  (after a Iot of footwork) I did get in. Josh also got some of his friends who worked at newspapers interested in my story. My immigration attorney was also a contact of his. In turn, he decided to become a lawyer as well, and help people fight for their rights. He didn’t go to UF but moved to Washington DC for law school. Years later he would  see me take my Oath of attorney for District of Columbia. Over the years  he’s been inspiring me to push further, to reach higher and showing me that hard work can pay off and that people are essentially good. So many things have happened over the last eight years and our lives became intertwined in ways I never imagined. It’s funny to think it was all set in motion in 2004 at 3 am. And we have a common goal.  To educate people with disabilities about their rights, to protect those in need. And we want to help more. On Tuesday Josh will sit for the New York Bar exam. Please keep your fingers crossed. I don’t know anyone who deserves it more. Good luck my friend!

Small town accessibility: The dilemma

Accessibility is a big deal to me. Not only because it affects me personally everywhere I go as I’m in a wheelchair, not only because it’s the right thing  to include people rather than exclude them, but it is also the law.  Florida regulations are often stricter than federal standards, but what  good does that do? Is it fair that many businesses take those requirements more seriously than others, often at a great cost? And that  doesn’t always mean money. I’ve known bar owners that eliminated certain amenities, because they couldn’t make them wheelchair accessible and they wanted to play fair and do the right thing, while others just wouldn’t be bothered You hear stories about lawyers  that ride about town stopping at every small town shop and venue, nit picking at every little thing they’ve done wrong, every way they’re non- ADA compliant, threatening them they’ll get sued unless they pay up. I don’t know  if people like that really exist or if it’s a myth. I do know that there are places that are not up to the code and the owners don’t seem to care much about it. Often, when you try to talk about it, in the friendliest fashion, say “You know, you really need to have a ramp to that new stage you’ve built” you get an attitude. And it’s completely unnecessary. But at that stage I have a choice- either I will stop hanging at that place all together or I’ll do something about it. And I really don’t ride around town looking for a fight. I don’t go into places searching for things wrong with them. But those regulations are there for a reason, and it’s  not to make someone’s life difficult. It is so people like me and not me alone can use the establishment like any other patron. I don’t look for those things, they find me. I’m there like everybody else, just out  to grab a drink, have dinner, sing a song. And I really don’t want to be ‘that guy’. You know, the person that shuts establishments down, gets them fined or otherwise in trouble. I’ve known someone who would go into bars with a clicker counting everyone inside to see if they were over capacity. He wasn’t really doing it it to be a pain. It’s a genuine fire hazard and safety concern and quite frankly, venue operators should have known better. It did get him banned from most places. That’s not really what I’m  afraid of, but I’m not out there to spoil everyone’s time. Gainesville is a small town and I’m not looking for that kind of reputation. But mostly I have great interest in seeing local venues succeed. Because I’m part of this community and I believe we all should watch out for each other, especially in this economy. A lot of bar owners are my friends. Some level with me, saying yes we really shouldn’t have public on that stage and we were not planning on it [but we do]. It happened more than once.  On the other hand it feels I’m more concerned with them than they are with me. What I want to do is establish a type of practice based on fairness and honesty and not gimmicks. And that’s why I’m conflicted. Because if nobody does anything, how will they ever learn? Yes, it’s the law, but I feel that until they realize that it’s simply the right thing to do rather than a hassle they need to deal with, they will always find ways to get around it. No one seems to question the fire or health code and why they’re there, yet for many people accessibility issues pose a problem.  There is very little understanding of why certain things are standard and very little awareness of how the social benefits outweigh the costs. And that truly is the issue.